Welcome to Show and Tell Friday! I love this time of year but yesterday it felt like my world came crashing down with one email I received when I got home from work!
After living in my little apartment for almost 11 years I got a message from the property manager that I have to move out by January 31st! Shock doesn't even begin to describe the feeling that came over me. I burst into tears before I could even finish reading the email! My landlord will be renovating my apartment and putting it up for rent for more money! They did this to another tenant last year and I never expected I would be next. I understand that the rental scene has changed a lot in the last 11 years since I moved in here. Silicon Valley is booming again. It's obvious on my commute to work every day that more people are working! Homeowners that have lost their homes due to foreclosure are now renting and those two things are making rent prices skyrocket but I'm a great tenant and I think that that should count for something! Obviously that's not worth more than money though.
I like change and have thought about moving before but when I look at the price of rent here it just wasn't an option which is why I have stayed here for almost 11 years!
Now I'm being forced to move at the happiest time of the year! Who does this to someone right before the holiday season?
I can't even begin to explain the rollercoaster of emotions I have gone through in the last 24 hours since I found out. It feels like divorce all over again. I remember these emotions...hurt, anger, sadness, fear....they are all there. I went to work today with huge puffy eyes and then felt the need to explain to everyone why it was obvious I had been crying all night!
Of all these emotions I think fear is by far the worst! I can barely afford this place now since my rent has increased $200 over the last two years and now I will have to probably pay at least $200 more a month to rent a new place. Almost 2 years ago I lost my job due to layoffs and I was lucky to find another job but I had to take a pay decrease. While the cost of everything is going up, I'm making less money.
When things seem bad, I always tell myself to put things in perspective. I have my health, my kids are healthy, I have supportive friends and family and I have a job with a great boss! I'm very grateful for what I do have. I keep telling myself that but it's still hard!
My daughter, who is about to turn 21 in two weeks, has been my rock for the last 24 hours. She was only 10 years old when we moved here and I remember she was so happy. After moving from a very, very small 1920 cottage she thought this little apartment looked like a mansion! She has been so positive and has offered to help with the rent. This is not where I ever expected to be at this time in my life. Again..I'm telling myself to put things in perspective, stay positive and things will be okay. As much as I keep saying those words I feel like they are just words. I'm really afraid of the future right now.
I was so excited to decorate for Christmas and now I don't know when I will be moving so I'm not sure what to do. Do I put up a tree or not? I'm afraid to wait until after Christmas and only have 30 days to find a place and pack and move. I'm not sure what I'll do at this moment but I'll take you along this new journey with me.... One thing is certain...I need to be out by January 31st. I've asked for more time but haven't heard a word yet.
So many of you have been with since I started blogging in 2005 and I have really enjoyed sharing my little apartment with you. I'm hoping that this is a new and better chapter to my life!
If there is one positive thing....I'll finally have something new to blog about!
...as you can see, I was happily decorating for Autumn last weekend with no clue about the news I was about to receive Tuesday night! Sorry for such a downer of a post this week. I'm hoping that I will be really happy in the near future and sharing an even better "My Romantic Home". After all, I know that "home" isn't just the place you live in, it's the place you turn into your little nest. If I made this little 1969 apartment a cozy home, I can do again, even if I'm living in a shack on the bad side of town! haha! Just kidding! I'll be okay no matter what! Based on past experience I know I always bounce back!
If you happen to know someone with a rental in the South Bay area of San Francisco please let me know. I'm looking for something around $1900 a month or less. Everything here seems to be well over $2000 a month right now!
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